The Babbling Bleating Old Man

December 28, 2006

So He/She sat down…

Filed under: The Waning World

Practising the deep perfect wisdom action luminously
And thought that the five human natures are empty

Then She called him over…

"My dear friend… form does not differ from emptiness. Emptiness does not differ from form. Form is emptiness. Emptiness is form."

He who is startled…

"If form does not differ from emptiness, a full cup is an empty cup; vice versa?"

"Like the feeling inside, is a choice."
"All characters are empty. It does not decrease nor increase."

Thus, he was in a the middle of emptiness. Confused.

"There is no form no feeling no thought no choice no consciousness."
"No eye no ear no nose no tongue no body no mind."
"No sight no hearing no smell no taste no touch no consciousness."
"Nothing. Up to the root of the mind."

Therefore He/She dwells with perfect wisdom.
Therefore He/She dwells with no obstacle exhaustion nor clarity exhaustion.
No aging exhaustion.
No suffering, end of suffering path.
No knowledge, no oneself.

"But an empty cup can never be a full cup, nor a full cup can be an empty cup?"

"Feelings. Intention. Consciousness. Perception."
"Full or empty, do you feel it’s adequate?"
"Full or empty, do you intend to make it full or empty?"
"Full or empty, do your conscience wants it?"
"Full of empty, do you perceive it orderly?"

"Then, we are equating enforcers do not differ from crooks, crooks fo not differ from enforcers?"

"Enforcers or crooks, the crooks feels hatred towards the enforcers, vice versa."
"Enforcers or crooks, the intention is never the same, but to take out one another."
"Enforcers or crooks, the consciousness is never the same, but as volatile as another."
"Enforcers or crooks, the perception is never the same, worlds do not meet."

"But enforcers keep order, crooks create disorder. They cannot be the same."

"Feelings. Intention. Consciousness. Perception."
"They are the same."
"Crooks see enforcers as crooks, themselves as enforcers. Enforcers see crooks as enforcers, and of course themselves as enforcers."

There is no form nor emptiness.
It all starts from the heart.
There is never feelings, intention, consciousness, perception towards perfect wisdom action.

Never the wealthy are better than the poor.
Never the mighty are stronger than the weak.
Never the whites are superior to the blacks.
Never the colour red brings better luck than the pale.

It’s all feelings, intention, consciousness and perception.

Wealth do not draw your picture of eternal happiness.
Colour do not segregrate opportunity and rights.
Colour do not segregrate which poor you should cloth and feed.
Religion do not play God by being certain that non-believers are doomed to Hell.
Religion do not play God by telling who is the deserved or who is not.

Perfect wisdom action? It does not happen anymore.

December 22, 2006

Requiem requiem, requiem of a dream

Filed under: Requiem

Requiem requiem of a dream,
A requiem of four different dreams;
Requiem of a dreadful dream,
But God why? Why requiem of a dream?

Indeed. One requiem has came true. And another shall come.
Requiem, requiem of a dream.

December 15, 2006

Retards

Do read this entire entry if you have the heart.

On the 13th of December 2006, at approx 1.30pm a road
traffic accident involving a driver driving a dark
blue proton saga and a highway road sweeper of Malay
descent, male, approx mid 20s (the road accident
victim).

The location of the accident was about 150 – 200
meters from the Batu Tiga toll booth, elite highway in
the direction towards KLIA.

I chanced upon this accident which had just happened
while on my way back to work (Ampang via KESAS).

As I approached the accident site it seemed the victim
was already dead, the driver who had knocked him down
was standing near-by and nobody dared approach to lend
assistance to the victim, almost as if this was one
time were an invasion of privacy was taboo.

I stopped my vehicle and approached, upon examining
the accident victim I found him to be still alive but
heavily concussed, his pupils were completely dilated.

Suddenly the victim grabbed my hand and tried with all
his might to raise himself to his feet. I tried to
calm him and asked by-standers if an ambulance had
been called. I was told it had not.

In a firm tone I told the driver of the car that hit
the victim to call for an ambulance. He dialed 999, it
rang until it could not ring anymore. He rang again,
again it was not answered, he rang again and passed
the phone to me. Finally someone answered (a man).

I informed him that I am reporting an accident a few
hundred meters away from the Batu Tiga Toll in the
direction of KLIA. He asked me my phone number and my
name and which hospital was nearest. I gave the info
and added that the nearest hospital to deal with this
kind of trauma is probably Klang.

At 1.57pm I received a call from 03 3371 7989 the
ambulance control center at Klang Hospital. The guy in
charge of the control center asked to speak to me and
asked for the location of the accident, which I gave
adding that the victim was dying and that this was an
extreme emergency.

The guy manning the control center did not know my
location, so I repeated it clearly and concisely. It
seemed that he needed to understand it for himself
otherwise he could not pass on the information and
dispatch the ambulance. It was a frustrating
conversation. I repeated the details of my location
and he asked me if I was sure that Klang was the
nearest hospital. I repeated firmly, yes!

I told him the injuries of the victim hoping he would
feel the urgency, instead he wanted to know whether
“dia jatuh motor ke…?” I told him politely that his
question is completely irrelevant and hurry up with
the ambulance plus I have to hang up and attend to the
victim.

I called back at 2.06pm to ask if an ambulance had
been dispatched. The same guy told me “belum”. He
asked me the same questions…I answered them.

I warned him that the next time I make a call will be
to the Menteri Besar’s office to complain about his
shoddy professionalism, so he’d better send out that
ambulance immediately. I called Salamat Dollah at
2.08pm and he helped call Klang Hospital on my behalf
to request they send out an ambulance immediately.

I waited and called the emergency control center at
Klang Hospital at 2.36pm and asked the same guy if an
ambulance had been dispatched, same answer, “belum”.

He requested me to repeat the accident location again
which I did. This time I told him that he need not
understand it just write it down and give it to the
ambulance driver along with my hp number.

I waited again. The victim was rolling in pain on the
road, his head had a gash about 10cm long on the back
of his head, the skin on his head was beginning to
peel off. His left leg was completely broken and
hanging by the flesh but the main artery was not
severed, he was not loosing much blood. His workmate
was cradling him in his arms and asking him to
mengucap kalimah syahadah.

I tried to stop further damage to his left leg by
securing it to his right leg. I told the few people
around that he is going to die if we don’t get him to
hospital. Everyone was reluctant to put him in there
car, all kinds of excuses… ada barang, kotor la,
berdarah la… Meanwhile the victim was grabbing on to
my clothes and body in pain, unable to talk possibly
due to his head injury.

Finally the driver who knocked him down allowed us to
use his car to send the victim to the hospital. But he
was too shaken-up to drive. Another gentleman offered
to drive but did not know how to exit the Elite
highway to get towards Klang Hospital. I asked him to
follow me and so we drove off as fast as we could head
towards USJ - Federal Highway – Klang. We had to go
through so many toll gates, some paying, some after
explaining briefly, let us through.

On the Federal Highway despite our attempts to notify
motorist that we were in a state of emergency many
blocked our path and only relented to give way when I
practically sat on my car horn.

We arrived in Klang and I called the emergency control
center guy for directions to the hospital. I was by
this time quite distressed and pronounced the name of
the hospital wrongly. The guy in the control center
told me there was no such hospital in Klang, so I said
to him. “Have you sent out an ambulance to the Batu
Tiga toll accident site ? No, right? So since you
cannot understand were the accident is we are sending
the victim to you. This is an emergency can you give
me directions to your hospital or not??”

Finally he did.

When we arrived at Klang Hospital I had a hard time
looking for the staff to bring a trolley to remove the
victim from the car. I asked for assistance from two
nurses but did not receive a response. I took a
trolley and pushed it to the car, suddenly a hospital
aide appeared, then another, as we tried to remove the
victims body from the car, it was then that the
co-worker who had been cradling the victim in the car
said that he has stopped breathing.

The hospital aides rushed the victim into the A&E room
and I followed, as he was wheeled in there was no
immediate response from the doctors, it was obvious
this young man with his whole life ahead of him had
died in the car on the way to the hospital.

I was so angry, my words were simple – “Kecuaian pihak hospital menghantar ambulance membantu
mangsa ini telah mengecewakan rakyat.”

The aide asked me to be calm. How could any human
being be calm when face with such stupidity and total
lack of regard for human life? The aide showed me the
IC and asked me to confirm if this was the victim. I
confirmed. I briefly saw the name Mohd Yusry and his
age was somewhere in his mid- twenties.

As I walked away from the A&E room in disgust I saw
the control center. A guy was sitting in it with a
female nurse looking at a computer (very close and
comfy).

I approached him and asked if he was the person who
took my calls, he knew my name and I asked him for
his, he declined. I asked him why he did not dispatch
an ambulance to which he replied something brash.

I asked him if he was happy as the victim was
unnecessarily dead and that I am going to ensure that
his lackadaisical attitude to his job was brought to
the public attention. I asked him for his name again
along with the nurse who was sitting next to him
“playing” with the computer. He refused to give it to
me. Feeling very frustrated I called Salamat Dollah
and informed him that regretfully the road accident
victim a young Malay man had died in the car on the
way to the hospital and that no ambulance had been
dispatched.

This is not the first time I have called for an
ambulance and used the 999 services. Every time I have
called for an ambulance it has never arrived, never.
Why??

This is the first road accident victim I have helped
who has actually died. Everyone else I have helped
before this has survived.

I extracted the above article from this page.

Speechless.

Let me put it in a chronology.

  • 1.30 - Road sweeper got knocked down. 999 was dialed.
  • 1.57 - Phone call received from Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR) Klang to confirm the location of accident
  • 2.06 - Phone call to HTAR, but ambulance has not been dispatched
  • 2.36 - Aider decided to drive to HTAR since there was still no sign of the ambulance
  • approx 3.30 - Victim arrived at hospital. Pronounced dead.

Maybe if the road sweeper looked after himself,
Maybe if the driver drove more carefully,
Maybe it was fated by the Almighty,
Maybe it was karma.

Well, I can only say this. F*ck no, none of the above. 

If the few cowards were willing to use their cars to drive the victim to the hospital.
If the retard who was working in HTAR was upholding the responsiblity honoured to him. The poor victim would be thankful now.

I am pretty sure the poor man would still be alive if he was a VIP. That hospital attendant would had received a *deserved* promotion for his *swiftness* in saving one’s life. Or maybe that person who drove him to the hospital would had his pictures in every headline.

But well, that poor man was just a worthless sweeper ey? He has no value tagged on him. His death would had meant nothing to the society, right? Furthermore, he is dispensable.

If you are the parent of the sweeper, how would you take it knowing your son had the chance to stay alive only to be robbed by retards who cares for nothing but themselves. He was just like us. He had his lover, his children, his right. Robbed. Simply robbed. By retards.

December 13, 2006

2006

Filed under: My Circle of Life

18 days more to go and I will usher in year 2007. It’s time to wrap up year 2006 before I forget what happened when I grow older.

*Atuk:coughs coughs* emoticon

January. An uneventful one. Yeah. I was fuelled with emotions. You can call it PMS. Don’t get the wrong meaning. To me it means "Pre Missing-Everyone Syndrome". emoticon . Posted to New Zealand is like being sent off in the World Cup Finals.

February. Chinese New Year. Didn’t really cared about the Ang Paus. Was counting my days before leaving for New Zealand. *sobs* emoticon. 12th of Feb, the day I longed for, but…*sobs* emoticon . Well… there I was… in Christchurch (not to be mistaken with Auckland please…)

March. Settling in almost perfectly. Classes. Studies. Etc. Until the day I was stalked by this stranger who asked for money. Moved out to Newnham Terrace, then was when life really started emoticon

April. Ahuh. Eurotrip. Emm.. no… Queenstown trip. Hehe. How can I forget. The trip that never was. A crash, a weather and a quarrel. Luckily we did not ask for more. I want to go back Queenstown one day - minus the crash, bad weather and squabble. We went to Kaikoura too. Hehe.

May. My favourite and least favourite month of the year. Let me start off with the least favourite one first. Exams. Kinda used to it. My exams never fail to fall during my birthday. Darn darn darn. My birthday? I have to admit that I was outwitted by these trio of scumbags (ey.. don’t be offended.. it’s a friendly compliment like how you people call me "apek" and "buncit" emoticon). They actually abducted me and threw me a surprise dinner. You guys really had nothing better to do but make me cry. Darn. And of course, birthday presents from Malaysia. YL, LL, YF, SH, MF and WL. I really felt at home emoticon. A-huh. I went to Sydney to attend my sister’s graduation. emoticon

June. Bersatu Games in Dunedine. My leg did not help much making me a vivid spectator throughout the tournament. And it snowed in Christchurch. Yea yea.. snow.. y-i-i-p-e-e! emoticon

July. Obsession with MATLAB. Hehe. Newnham people and Newbridge people know best. Keke. And ah-hoi.. first World Cup overseas emoticon No favourites actually. But I owe someone for betting on Brazil. Hehe.

August. Dato’ Mustapa’s visit. Three of us did the video in two weeks. Satisfaction guaranteed. Screwed exam results guaranteed, too emoticon

September. Kinda dry. But I realize that Christchurch is not bad afterall. Exam trauma looms, accompanied by MATLAB case study and lab tests.

October. Exams. Everyone went bonkers. Some had a bad stomach experience (Hahaha.. Farid)

November. House broken into by a burglar. Thumbs up to Munzir for saving the day. Without him, we are like so burglared. All bow to Munzir! emoticon. Sorry… I mean Munzir’s bike. Keke. Then, back in Malaysia. The day I longed for emoticon.

 

December. Still doing my practical work. Looking forward to catch up with former aides before returning to NZ. emoticon I miss you three bafoons anyway. I will get a new jacket before returning. You just wait and see.

December 7, 2006

Requiem requiem, two requiems of two dreams

Filed under: Requiem

I couldn’t remember. Argh. My head.

December 5, 2006

Of books and looks

Filed under: General

Once upon a time…
Long long time ago…
In a secluded star system called…
Danl Helob (forty nine light years from Yavin IV)…
Everything was perfect…
Until one day…

Unrest escalated. Chaos threatened. Point-break loomed. War cradled.

The King of the Pack summoned its advisors. Resolutions must be drafted. Something must be done to cease the waning condition.

"People o people. Days are no longer like how it used to be. We are living in dark times. To be more precise, our descendants are living in dark times. They no longer respect the elders like we used to. And worse, they couldn’t master the craft of surviving!" emoticon

"You are right Milord! These younglings are just blatant disrespectful! Two days ago, I was having a stroll in the alleys. I met this youngling who was cleaning the carpets. How silly that kid was! He picked the particles one by one then walked to end of the streets to dispose them! Worse, he just wouldn’t listen to my advice! Scoundrel youngling!" emoticon

"That’s worrying. What did you say to him?" emoticon

"I told him to just kick the dust under the carpet. There is no urgency to remove them. When the next person comes, he will clean it." emoticon

"But isn’t there a broom for use?"emoticon

(The other elders scratched their head. They have no clue what a broom is. A seven course meal, perhaps)

"Yeah.. why didn’t he used the broom. Silly him!" (In pretense) emoticon

(The entire hall burst into laughter despite not knowing what a broom was)

"Silence"! emoticon

"Yeah! Why didn’t he used the broom! He could had carried the miserable particles with the broom. He wouldn’t need to filth his tender fingers." emoticon

(The entire hall burst into laughter again, finally ‘knowing’ what a broom was)

"Silence"! emoticon

"Those knaiving mongrels from Coruscant has conned us! Danl Helob gives them thousands and millions per light year for their knowledge and cutting-edge technology! We import their books and looks. Nothing has changed but the worse has happened! This is unforgivable!" emoticon

"Milord. We must ban those books from entering our vicinity. It is root of all these problems. Rebelling younglings. They think they know too much. No knowledge surpasses the wisdom of we Danl Helob elders! Not only that Milord. The books are the cause of crimes too. Sexual assaults. Robbery. Unrest. Blame all on the books Milord!" emoticon

(The hall applauded in agreement) emoticon

"Yes yes. Just look at books like Memories of My Melancholy Whores. From the way it sounds, I’m sure that it misleads our younglings to become priceless whores! Ban it ban it!"

(The hall applauded in agreement) emoticon 

(A humble citizen speaks up)
"But Milord. It is a book on a lady’s struggle in helping her poor family and finding true love." emoticon

"Nonsense! We cannot allow whores into this country! Nor we can afford to have any that is created from this tainted books!." emoticon

(The humble citizen monologues)
"I see you entering the brothel opposite my street daily…" emoticon

"We cannot let these books to come to our shores. Burn them. Incinerate them!" emoticon

(The hall applauded in agreement) emoticon 

"How about books like Shalimar the Clown and Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie?"

"They should not pass! We cannot envoke nationalism and revelation among our people! We must preserve what we think is solely right! Furthermore, we do not want a tainted author’s books to circulate in our country." emoticon

(The hall applauded in agreement) emoticon 

(A humble citizen speaks again)
"Milord. I suggest we bring this matter to further discussion before banning them…." emoticon

"Next time. It’s recess time. I need my afternoon nap." emoticon

(As the elders leave the hall, the encountered a group children reading. FHM, Apo, Ujang, Fashion Today, WWE, Gossipers Column, etc.)

"It’s okay to leave these people with these reading materials. It’s alright because there are  no words like "whores", "sex", "playboy". And of course, it does not derail my personal interests." emoticon

December 2, 2006

Snailing Saturday

Filed under: My Circle of Life

I want my bed now. Yawn. emoticon

Stuck in the office. Yawn. emoticon

Restless. Yawn. emoticon

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