The Babbling Bleating Old Man

As I walk this land with broken dreams 
I have visions of many things 
Love’s happiness is just an illusion 
Filled with sadness and confusion. 
 
What becomes of the brokenhearted 
Who had love that’s now departed? 
I know I’ve got to find 
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe. 
 
The fruits of love grow all around 
But for me they come atumblin’ down. 
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger 
I can’t stand this pain much longer. 
 
I walk in shadows searching for light 
Cold and alone, no comfort in sight, 
Hoping and praying for someone to care 
Always moving and going nowhere. 
 
What becomes of the brokenhearted 
Who had love that’s now departed? 
I know I’ve got to find 
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe. 
 
I’m searching though I don’t succeed, 
But someone look, there’s a growing need 
Oh, he is lost, there’s no place for beginning, 
All that’s left is an unhappy ending. 
 
Now what’s become of the brokenhearted 
Who had love that’s now departed? 
I know I’ve got to find 
Some kind of peace of mind 
I’ll be searching everywhere 
Just to find someone to care. 
I’ll be looking every day 
I know I’m gonna find a way 
Nothing’s gonna stop me now 
I will find a way somehow. 
 
(What’s become, what’s become, 
What’s become of the brokenhearted 
What’s become, what’s become, 
What’s become of the brokenhearted) 
 
I knooow, ohh yeah….

The Temptations

Al Pacino, Any Given Sunday:

I don’t know what to say really. Three minutes till the biggest battle of our professional lives. It all comes down to today. Now either we heal as a team, or we’re gonna crumble. Inch by inch, play by play, till we’re finished. We’re in hell right now, gentlemen. Believe me. And we can stay here, get the shit kicked out of us, or we can fight our way back into the light. We can climb out of hell. One inch at a time.

Now I can’t do it for you. I’m too old. I look around, I see these young faces, and I think… I mean I’ve made every wrong choice a middle-aged man can make. I pissed away all my money, believe it or not. I chased off anyone who’s ever loved me, and lately, I can’t even stand the face I see in the mirror. You know when you get old in life, things get taken from you. That’s part of life. But you only learn that when you start losing stuff. You find out life’s this game of inches. And so is football. Because in either game, life or football, the margin for error is so small. I mean… one half a step too late or too early and you don’t quite make it. One half second too slow too fast, you don’t quite catch it. The inches we need are everywhere around us. They are in every break of the game, every minute, every second. On this team, we fight for that inch. On this team, we tear ourselves and everyone else around us to pieces for that inch. We claw with our fingernails for that inch. Because we know when we add up all those inches, that’s gonna make the fucking difference between winning and losing! Between living and dying! I’ll tell you this - in any fight, its the guy whose willing to die who’s gonna win that inch. And I know if I’m going to have any life anymore, it’s because I’m still willing to fight and die for that inch. Because that’s what living is! The 6 inches in front of your face…

Now I can’t make you do it. You’ve got to look at the guy next to you, look into his eyes. Now I think you’re gonna see a guy who will go that inch with you. You’re gonna see a guy who will sacrifice himself for this team, because he knows when it comes down to it, you’re gonna do the same for him.

That’s a team, gentlemen. And either we heal, now, as a team, or we will die, as individuals. That’s football, guys. That’s all it is. Now, what are you going to do?

What ten months it has been. In four weeks time, I will be back in Klang and my slacking routine (After five final papers to sit). Well, not so slack this time because I got an awesome job offer during this Summer!

To wrap up this year:

Studies

• Studying has never been so good before. I hardly attended classes back in secondary school and my concentration wasn’t at its best during my last two years in Christchurch - ended up skipping lectures frequently. I only missed two lectures this year (If my memory does not fail me!). I still have much to learn and discover. I will really love to get involved in research one day.

Sports

• Weekly futsal is fun - These four words summed it all

Clubs

• I was part of the Canterbury Malaysian Students’ Society committee this year. It was one of the best commitee I have been involved with. Malam Malaysia was great too. CMSA managed to rake up three awards from the university’s student association this year (I only expected one!). Runner-Up for Supreme Club Award, Highly Commended Event - Malam Malaysia and Top International Club Award. "Win!" (Chai, 2008)

Travelling

• Queenstown during Easter Break and HK/China during Winter Break.  I like Xi’an.

Interests

• New notebook (Thanks mom and dad), and 5+1 Logitech Speakers (Haha… Bernard)
• AFU 819. Mr. Honda Cynos. My first car.

I’ll be leaving Christchurch on the 19th of November (I think..). Then I will be attached with a company for professional training. I am not bothered about the rest. I’ll let it come as it should.

Back to assignments..